Yellow Brick Road

In a 21st century Land of Oz I feel like Dorothy. I'm not too sure where my yellow brick road is going to lead me, but I don't even have the petrol money to get onto the damn yellow brick road! I feel like I'm on more of a dirt track in a van with terrible suspension.
Throughout varsity years I always felt so certain of my trajectory (even though I only figured out what 'trajectory' means late into my 2nd year)! I knew what subjects to take, what goals I wanted to reach, and most importantly, that this is DEFINITELY where I wanted to be for the next four years. Even that seemed too short a time.
But now I am back in Oz and I don't like it so much. It's work every day, go home, cook, clean, watch tv, go sleep. I am so bloody tired of being tired!!!!!This monotony is killing me slowly. I feel like I am awake in a filling bath, but my muscles won't work to get me out of there.
I feel so guilty for being unhappy when I have so so much, yet I feel I have nothing while I don't express how I feel. O bloody hell stop moaning and get back to work!