for real this time

so today is the first time im using this service to actually write about my academic work. At this stage we are busy completing our documentaries, and so far I have found using the journal very useful in coming up with great material for my documentary. But as we spoke this morning, I realised that becuase Im doing my documentaryabsomething so personal like my mother, I'm crossing the line so to speak between journalism and story telling. But, I think journalism is story telling. Its hard to define. The longer I study journalism the more difficult it becomes to define the term. Especially when you are doing a documentary as personal as mine, and you yourself are in the story. Thats one of the key things you learn in first year not to do, thats insert yourself into the story. But, I think it is much more fun this way. You get to really engage with the story you are telling and it lends the story a sense of being genuine, well I think so.
I have started scripting the narration but I'm finding it so difficult to get the process started. I know once the ball is rolling things become easier, but what a task.
I interviewed my sister the other day for this documentary and found out so much about my mom I didn't know. it was then that I really discovered a focus for my documentary. The story was actually about me going on a journey to find out more about my mom. Do you know how long it took me to find this out? HALLELUJA!!!
So today I have to organise interviews with Paddi Clay and a lady from the research dept at the SABC for our media studies work. As tedious as i find this, and it scares me when I have to talk to important people, its a great opportunity to make important contacts and thats necessary for me to maybe get a job one day... well, I hope. I think I am scared of things that are going to help me, especially when they involve hard work. But I guess I just have to vasbyt and everything will be okay.